Another notch under my belt. I guess thats the way to put it.
I've been seeing this guy who happens to be white. At this point, I am now placing him in the category of "just dating to say I did it..."
There really isn't much to say about him. He is not hard on the eyes, bald, a staunch Obama fan (I know I know). He can hold a conversation. He is al...right.
However, he was was in a 4 year relationship (with an older black woman) who wanted to get married and have children, but he wasn't ready. So he broke up with her. In the fall of last year. Yea. I know. I know.
That turned me off. Even though I tell myself I am not looking to get married or looking to having children based on the numerous excuses outlined for me: I am young. I have to settle on a career. I have to know myself. I have to love myself first.
The list motherfucking goes on.
I still cant help but date someone and possibly analyze and determine if I can see myself in the future with him.
Is it because I am a fucking woman and I have been influenced by society and family etc? OR is it in my nature to look for such?
I don't know. All I know is I am disappointed in his answers regarding commitment. There is also nothing I hate more than a guy who stays with a woman even though he knows what she is looking for in the relationship.
He is 34 by the way. He will be 35 in March.
As usual, all the guys in my blog receive a "heartfelt" name. He will now be referred to as IronMan. He reminds me of Jeff Bridges role of Obadiah in the movie Iron Man.
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Ironman states he knew he didn't want to be married from 25-35. mmhmm
Ironman states he wants to have kids eventually. mmhmm
Ironman makes me want to DROP him ON the curb because I am not comfortable with being a notch under someone else's belt.
Although, there was this one guy who told me he wanted to fuck an African because he heard itll be good. Damn, that sexy ignorant asshole. Anyway, I digress.
We are going out again on Saturday to a comedy club. How long should I let this go on before I decide to dismiss? Ill see in a few weeks...I guess. Currently, I am dating around 3.5 guys so I can get my mind off any of these guys easily. I have a blog post about the .5 at a later date. I am on this "self improvement kick. Eating healthy. Working out heavily. Its been a little over 2 weeks. I think its frigging working because I can sleep through the night and I feel energized. Relaxed, even.
I was sad about the ending of GreenCard and I but now I have no thoughts on it. It was bound to happen. Anyway, I have to give the background to that at a later date as well.
And once again, I digress.
I kissed Ironman at the end of the night and everyone who is anyone KNOWS I hate kissing. But I did it. 2 small pecks. No fireworks. No wet panties.
...well inner thighs, because I don't do the panty thing.
By the way, I haven't had sex in 7months.
Is this real life?


